why things turned to be like this?

RIGHT NOW, I JUST WANT TO WON THE LOTTERY, THEN RUN AWAY FROM THIS HOUSE:(
i so depressed right now, God knows what i only want, I WANT A PEACEFUL FAMILY.
I WANT TO RETURN THE TIMES WHERE,I DONT NEED TOO CRY, TO BE AFRAID AND TO BE STRESSED, WHERE IM AT EASE WITH ALL OF THEM, WHERE I CAN FEEL SECURITY, AND THAT IM LOVED, waiting for that day to come again, praying and still hoping.