why things turned to be like this?

RIGHT NOW, I JUST WANT TO WON THE LOTTERY, THEN RUN AWAY FROM THIS HOUSE:(
i so depressed right now, God knows what i only want, I WANT A PEACEFUL FAMILY.
I WANT TO RETURN THE TIMES WHERE,I DONT NEED TOO CRY, TO BE AFRAID AND TO BE STRESSED, WHERE IM AT EASE WITH ALL OF THEM, WHERE I CAN FEEL SECURITY, AND THAT IM LOVED, waiting for that day to come again, praying and still hoping.

HIS VOICE IS ONE OF THE SWEETEST VOICE I EVER HEARD

MAY 22.
JOYDEE one of my bestfriend, came over to house, for a sleep over, coz the next day we will go together to the church with apple, one of our bestfriend.

originally i planned to sleep early, i need to wake up tomorrow at 5:30 coz the service will start at 7.

but that evening something happened the gf of the boy i like had a fight with him.
so then,at that time, joydee called him, and thats it, we talked about whats the latest happening to our life, since we didnt see each other for quite sometimes.
we slept at 3:45am i guess!

i enjoyed it actually.
our conversation.
when he laughed, i felt butterfly in my stomach.
i dont love him anymore, maybe just like.
but im still happy.
i hope we can talk to each other again soon.